Ha!
I know better now that that's not how life works. It's not how God works. He continually challenges us with new trials and tests to grow us more dependent on Him.
But, foolishly I still expect this harmony! I get so discouraged when my kids come home and tell me they got in trouble in school today. EveryDAY! For some reason because I told them to behave I expect it from them with no mercy for their failures. I have made peace my idol.
I know that the only way I will be able to love my family more is to love Christ more. Sadly, I love myself way too much and all these children just keep getting in the way of my perfect dream, peace.
Thankfully God doesn't see us that way. We are not ruining His perfect peace. He loves us with a selfless, enduring, perfect love. May my heart grow more and more dependent on Christ.
Less of me more of Him.
