Battling With an Old Friend

I had a visit today from my arch enemy : Doubt. He reared his ugly head as I was resting comfortable with baby Nathaniel laying on my chest.

"What if you can't handle this?" he said. It was one simple question that ran through my brain gaining speed and trying to take root. It was a question that I haven't entertained very much in the last month because I already know what the answer is and don't need to rehash it.

I can sit here and type how I know that God is in control of all things. That He never leaves or forsakes us. He is all knowing and all powerful. He sounds pretty awesome doesn't He. But sometimes He needs to remind me that I am none of those things. I will feel inadequate, lost, overwhelmed, alone, incompetent, and at times like an all around failure, but God. And that is my answer to it all. But GOD. If Christ is not seen in all that Jesse and I do then the viewer is blind.

Doubt. My enemy. Christ died for that too! I am forgiven and for that I have the power to lay doubt to rest and leave the details to God.

I was pondering how at the end of May I had the whole summer planned out to a T. Then one phone call changed my summer and life forever. I can try and plan my days, but the Lord directs my steps. Will I submit myself the the changes joyfully? Will you?

LOVE, Jessica