Die Hard Pessimist Living Like an Optimist

There is no hope in being a pessimist. Why try this or that if you already know it's not going to work. I don't like being a pessimist and I can't love, train and care for six kids for God's glory and look at the glass half empty. I'm thankful God is not a pessimist or He would have given up on me a long time ago or probably would never have began.

Everything I try on the little ones doesn't work. The behavior modification stuff is trying on the nerves and drives the other kids crazy in the house. My kids just look at these boys when they throw temper tantrums and are baffled by the show of foolishness. The worlds advise is weak and doesn't address the heart of these little boys. Every time I think of a new way to reach them and help them follow the rules it works for a day because it's new, but then fails because it's weak. These boys need boundaries, consistency, truth and love. I'll have to admit it is hard to apply the love when the first three go wrong.

Loving children who work so hard at being annoying is a challenge, I wonder how God does it? Oh yea, He's God and perfect. I am not. I am weak and selfish and an annoying pessimist. I know He is reforming me into an optimist, but man does it hurt. It's like changing your skin, being peeled until your raw and then rebuilt. The work is hard and tiresome and long and never ending... there I go again being a pessimist! I'll try harder next time.