I loved home schooling. I loved having my kids around. I loved the freedom to do as we wished when we wished. But as time went by and they grew older life together and schoolwork got harder. Our adoption is finalized and we are so happy to have that over. Now I want to focus on taking care of my family with a happy heart. I haven't been doing that for a while and it grieves me to say that I have not been a good steward with my children's hearts.
I don't know what next year will look like. Maybe I will work with one or two of the other kids or maybe they will all stay where they are at. I do know that I serve a gracious God who loves me and takes care of me even when I push myself to far. He is more interested in my love for Him and how I portrait Christ to my children, than in how many A's my kids can achieve.
Oh, that's such a great way to look at it. I have a friend who has SIX...one of their own, four adopted, and now a foster child. She has been homeschooling for awhile and also decided to put two of hers in public school - the oldest one has a disability so she's home, and the three younger are still home with her all day. It was also a hard decision for her - getting your focus on the Lord and serving your family will make being with them that much sweeter. My kids come home each day to a Mom who is cheerful and excited to see them and talk to them. This home is their haven and shelter from "the world" and it's amazing to see how they have grown. Praying for you guys!
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